searching for motto 2009

searching for motto 2009. i am still in the works. its a little harder this year and i feel the pressure. 

 

written december 18 2007 via xanga with modifications

background information: since 2006 i have had one motto for the whole year.  year before that, i believe i had a small, but somewhat realistic list of new year’s resolutions.  i found that the list was still too hard to do, so i changed and decided to have one motto for the whole year.  the motto would be a self-improving goal that i would continue to work on for the rest of the year.  was this a better strategy?  i think so. 

be loving 2006.  i had a small reputation of not being so nice. maybe not that, but i might have taken sarcasm to another level that was not westmont friendly and then i also had my five year friend plan (probably needs a whole separate post).  friends did not like that, was given the nickname “two sizes too small” (talking about my heart) from how the grinch stole christmas, thus be loving 2006 inspired my friends to help me and to join me in trying to be more loving.  and overall, it was a fantastic and humbling year.  i felt the change and they saw me change. it was all good.  so this trend continued this year and will continue to the next, and not just for me, but for my friends too. 

live it up 2007.  id like to think i lived the year out well.  looking back, it was definitely a challenging and more emotional year.  im pretty sure i did not have emotions before this year.  despite how bad things may seem at the moment or how confused and full of emotions one might have, it always gets better.  our lives are too good to complain of anything.  that little spiel doesnt really explain if i lived it up in 2007, but i do think i was more adventurous, more spontaneous than i was in 2006. i  was pretty boring (much of a homebody), but i knew i needed to have a little more fun in my life than the interactions that i was having with my computer. aka: my literati games, aim, facebook, xanga…real life and real people are more fun.  this motto was way better than the initial no expectations 2008. :)  

dont give up, embrace 2008.  i started conjuring up a 2008 motto during the summer at ausable.  yes, it was a tad premature to think of a motto when there were plenty of months to live it up; but i just get so excited thinking up new mottos.  people threw in their two cents, but unfortunately many mottos were rejected.  i cannot just pull a motto right out of a hat.  it is way more than that.  if i have to live with this motto throughout the year, it has to be good.  a friend threw the idea of embrace 2008.  i liked it, but it was not good enough.  i didnt have as strong of a meaning that i wanted it to have.  although as you can see, i kept it because it went very well with my dont give 2008 plan.  i had a very sad housing situation this semester and i was sad for a friend because she was easily giving up.  then i noticed that other friends being dreary about the school year, completing work, figuring out their life after school, financial issues, the hardships of being in our early twenties.  oh the melodrama. then i realized that this next year is going to be hard with so many changes that will be set before us: graduation, unexpected new friends and unexpected lost friends, jobs and careers, new cities, new lives, anything.  even from the small things like not wanting to go to class or doing a project well, but dont give up.  as a lot of friends are returning from abroad, things will change, but embrace and do not give up.  (and now i have a theme song: hope by twista)

where will you be september 2008.  as seniors we are getting that question a lot a lot.  we dont really know where we are going to be, but we do have a pile of dreams.  the last week before finals i asked any senior i knew or did not know, where they thought they would be september 2008.  they could say where they thought they were going to be geographically, work wise, married, pregnant, whatever.  i thought it would be neat to see where we thought we were going to be in relation to where we actually end up, thinking that most of us would know where we would be come graduation.  so at graduation, everyone will get their three by five cards back.  my goal is to get seventy-five percent of the senior class by the end of january.  ps. at senior chapel i came up with a westmont motto: one family 2008. borrowed from mount hermon, but i didnt realize that until after i had said it. 

where will i be september 2008. i wrote down on my three by five card that i would either be in the bay area or somewhere near boston.  i love the eccentricity of the city and a couple of friends and i have vaguely threw out the idea. that was one idea amongst the other ambitions, but as for september 2008.  i have a feeling i will stay in california as much as i would like to serve elsewhere, but with my grandparents getting older and with losing one this year, some things can wait. you only get one family.